Too happy?

Too happy?

Okay, so I’m really happy at the moment and it’s freaking me out. Not because there’s anything wrong with being happy. It’s just that I don’t know why I’m suddenly feeling like an exhuberant puppy, can’t understand why I’m crushing on my husband like a lovesick teenager, grabbing my children by the scruffs of their necks and telling them how wonderful they are, why I’m staring out of the window thinking what a wonderful world this is, so full of possibilities, so full of adventure…

See? It’s weird. I’ve googled it to see if it’s the precursor of some terrible disease but so far can’t find one.

But it’s got me thinking. The thing is, I think we’ve all got so used to justifying why we’re feeling slightly grumpy, vaguely dissatisfied with things. I certainly have. PMT. Exhaustion. Post baby blues (I’ve had three of the blighters). Sleepless nights. Worries about bills. Sick children. Sick parents. Unhappy friends. Lack of exercise. Lack of time. Lack of shoes that actually work with my clothes (or clothes that work with my shoes; I’m still trying to figure that one out). All out to vex us, to trip us up, to explain away our glassy eyes, our shrug in response to someone asking how we are. It’s become a way of life; ‘having a proper conversation’ inevitably involves complaining about things.

Which is why I am currently so… confused. I have nothing to moan about; I don’t feel like complaining. I woke up this morning feeling all buzzy and excited, like I’d just had the best first date EVER (know that feeling? walking back on a high, endorphins rushing around your body, your mind full of hope, of expectation, of joy? If not, you will. And it’s wonderful. Really.), when in reality I had half an hour to get three children dressed and breakfasted in time for the school run.

Like I said, it’s weird.

But kind of nice.

Especially because I know the likelihood is that by tomorrow I’ll be back to my reassuringly grumpy self again. Ah, the relief…:)

3 Comments
  • Peter McAlister

    yes it is very nice to be happy and no know worries to know. I have read the first two books of the series The Declaration. I absolutely love the plot in number two. Can’t wait to read the last book. 😉 Have a GREAT and HAPPY day.

    Peter McAlister

    p.s is their any new books that u are working on.

    LOL :)

    21st September 2013 at 9:42 pm
  • Elle Mouton

    I know the feeling :)
    Wow!! I don’t really know how to put it…But your books are amazing! I have read the whole “The Declaration” series three times and i just finished reading the first book for the fourth time. I know it sounds a bit much, but what can I say? The story gets me every time.

    I guess I just wanted to say thank you so much for giving me hours and hours of bliss!! I am actually attempting a book of my own at the moment, and I just hope that it will have the same capability of gripping a person, just like the declaration gripped me (but that is going to be one hell of a challenge!!).
    Thanks so much for everything.
    Elle

    P.S. I’m actually presenting a book review oral next week about you and your books, and I came across this site whilst researching :)

    17th October 2013 at 3:12 pm
  • Hi Gemma Malley! I have read all of the books in The Declaration series and they were really good and exciting! Also Elle good luck with your book and I’m sure it will grip a person like me! And The Declaration series is so brilliant isn’t it! Peter you should read the final book it’s awesome!! Samuel xx

    17th November 2013 at 3:14 pm